RM's Lyricism Had Me Drawn Into His World

I wish it rains all day
Cuz I’d like someone to cry for me, yeah
I wish it rains all day
Cuz then people wouldn’t stare at me, yeah

Cuz the umbrella would cover the sad face
Cuz in the rain people are busy minding themselves
Gonna breathe a little slower
Cuz my life and my rap, they’re usually too fast

Now everything goes back to its place
My shadow’s reflected on the sky
I’m standing on the darkness
Head down, to my heels


When it rains I
Get a little feeling that I do have a friend
Keeps knocking on my windows
Asks me if I’m doing well
And I answer, I’m still a hostage of life
I don’t live because I can’t die
But I’m chained to something

Just like you
If I could
Just knock on somewhere
If I could kiss
The whole world so hard
Would someone welcome me
Maybe embrace my weary body

Please don’t ask any questions
But do keep pouring forever
I’m not lonely when you’re pouring
Please stay by my side
Wanna live in the ashy world
I know that there’s no forever


Well, I never knew i would shed my tears when i randomly play this video while sitting on a bus on my way to work early in the morning. It's my first time i could  relate so much to the lyric of a rap song. No doubt he's the leader of the biggest boygroup of the century. I mean look at the first verse, I like rains, idk why i just feel comfortable when i hear the sounds when the rains touch the earth, the smell of the soil when it rains and that there's some feeling missing. After i watched this, I found that missing part, the feeling that i want someone cry for me. Looking back i was tearing up couple times this year, i feel that it's unfair that i was the only one who cried. I want people who hurt me also cry. isn't it fair?
Also when it rains, no matter how loud i cried people wouldn't mind, cause they're busy minding themself. I could cover my sad face with my umbrella.

"When it rains I
Get a little feeling that I do have a friend
Keeps knocking on my windows
Asks me if I’m doing well"

Why is this describing my feeling so well, I swear there's no single human in this earth asking if i'm doing well even once!!Especially this year, where I need it the most. Honestly it was the hardest year ever, when everything has changed. I was fighting with my ownself whether i should stay or leave, since everything is a mess especially at work. I thought about giving up so many times but I don't think quit from this is the best answer so i try to survive. 

So many things happen to me, worked under tight pressure, losing my phone and my luggages while commuting and my body is easily getting tired lately.

I hope i could keep moving forward so i can let these useless thought, I hope i have a more blessed year ahead. 

I hope i could met my better half soon.


Thank you for LETTING ME KNOW HOW I SHOULD FELL THIS WAY RM-SSI!!